Tuesday, December 8, 2009

TMI Tuesday #216

Funny how this TMI is about being kinky... I bought myself a toy yesterday (I got me an early Christmas gift & my first toy ever!) and had the pleasure to try it last night. Oh my. Mmmmm.

Anyways, TMI time. :)


1. Which is more important of the two in "chemistry," physical attractiveness or emotional attractiveness? Sincerely? I would say the physical. However, there cannot be chemistry without emotional attraction. The emotional glues people together and allows for a better physical chemistry, in the long run - at least for me.

2. On a scale from 1-10, how kinky are you? 7 - kinky enough to not scare anyone away, yet open to any proposals! :)

3. Sitting on Santa's lap... fun or creepy? Well, it depends... Santa at the mall can be creepy, but Santa in my bedroom could be kinky ;)

4. Have you ever fallen asleep or passed out during sex?  No... never passed out from pleasure or asphyxiation. No unfortunate incidents either.

5. Do you wear socks to bed? Is that okay or totally unsexy? I don't wear socks to bed, I usually am barefooted 9 months out of 12... and my husband doesn't wear any to bed either. I don't think it's that unsexy.

Bonus: What is your greatest strength? Weakness?  My strength would be positivism and my weakness would be naiveness. I'm positive I can change. :)


TMI Tuesday

Monday, December 7, 2009

Blown away

From previous post:

     "So, we go at your speed. Ok?"
     "Yes, I'll see you later", I said

I was nervous the rest of the day, just couldn't work... I pretended to be busy with menial tasks. Shredding and filing doesn't require a lot of attention. Unless you shred what you're supposed to file. Thankfully, it didn't happen!

But as I drove there, I was very calm. I knew Ironman would be nice and charming, I didn't have to worry about anything... or he would be horrible to me and attack me as soon as the door closed behind us. I was worried because I didn't tell anyone where I would be. Because I can't send that information to any of my friends, obviously. I could have sent it to R, but I didn't. No, I knew I would be fine. [My imagination is really overactive at times.]

We arrived there at the same time. IM parked next to me. Gosh, he's handsome. Tall men with dark hair and green eyes are just my thing (ok - men who captivate my attention are just my thing). He told me he'd be nervous, but it's not showing. He brought stuff with him, as he's carrying a bag. Overactive imagination acting up again. I won't share what I thought.

I'm nervous now.

After the details were taken care of, we walked to the room. Get in, lock the door (I watched "Derailed" - I'm not taking chances). We set our briefcases and coats on the desk. Look at each other, smile, talk. I'm more relaxed now. He digs into his bag and pulls out a bottle of wine. My overactive imagination was put to rest. We have some wine, talk a bit more. Sit on the bed, not too close, not too far.

I'm not making a move, I told him I wouldn't make the first move... He moves closer to me. His hand brushes my cheek, goes through my hair and he's pulling me into a kiss. I just want to get lost in this real first kiss. We come up for air after a minute or two... wow, what a kiss.

I'm convinced now.

I don't remember what we talked about after that first kiss. At this point, I just want to kiss him some more and get closer to him. I set my glass on the bedside table and we kiss again. This one is different. It's more intense, more urgent. Who needs wine when you can get drunk on such an amazing feeling. I think we both know how this will end. And we're not holding back...

Next thing we know, we are getting rid of our clothes, having serious foreplay, even some exploration in unchartered territories and just enjoying being together for 2 hours. At times he was gentle, at times he was rough, but never careless. He even wanted to get under the covers, talk and just hold me after.

I'm charmed now.

Unfortunately, we couldn't stay any longer. That's life. We walked back to our cars and kissed goodbye.

I'm not sure if I'll see him again... I hope so, but he's dealing with first-timer issues and I can only wait & see.

But I was blown away by what happened and the clarity that it brought.

FGS Fantasy 7 of 669 (Part 2)

(Please go & read part 1 of this story here. This is my own ending & FG Sakes is posting his ending here.)

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I saw my fantasy date walk up to me slowly. FGS was looking incredibly handsome. There is something about an older man, about his allure, his confidence & experience... just to think I'd be sitting close to him made my heart flutter in anticipation. It was exhilirating to be meeting a stranger, on a fantasy date, in an unknown town. Dangerous but exciting.

I had flown in the previous night and we had agreed to meet here at the club. All day, I prepared for this... had carefully done my hair, put on perfume behind my ears and my knees... I even shaved, for gosh sakes! I put on a light makeup, chose a dress that would hug my curves and put on those boots that made me feel naughty.


We greeted each other with a kiss on the cheek and I took that chance to deeply inhale his scent... absolutely intoxicating. I sighed lightly and you smiled at me, probably knowing how charmed I already was. The waiter arrived at that moment and asked what we would like to drink. You ordered glasses of scotch for us, which was perfect, as I wanted something as warm as the atmosphere in the club, as warm as my cheeks and as warm as your hand at the small of my back, guiding me to our booth.

It was true, we could only see the stage from our seats, our own little private & intimate show. The waiter brought our glasses and, crossing my legs, I turned to you and proposed a toast to our encounter. Took one sip. Let it warm my tongue, fill my mouth with its sharp taste. Looking at you, not breaking eye contact, I let the warm liquid make its way down my throat, leaving a trail of fire in the process and making me moan in pleasure.

The show started and we settled into our seats, our thighs pressed together, our bodies humming at the music playing. We ordered more scotch, flirted a little, your fingers moving a strand of hair behind my ears, or my hand gently grazing the back of your neck and my fingers toying with your hair.

I leaned towards your ear and whispered "FGS... it's going to be an awesome evening, I can feel it", sliding my hand on your thigh, just so you'd know what I meant. I removed my scarf, it was getting way too hot in here. The music sent delicious vibrations throughout my body, the alcohol warmed my blood and lowered my inhibitions. You threaded your fingers in my hair and fisted your hand in, tugged at it firmly while trailing your lips from my ear down my neck, over my exposed collarbone, back up to my ear and said "SF, that scarf will be useful later tonight... don't forget it". I could feel my nipples getting hard, my heartbeat speeding up and sending warmth and blood down my core at what went through my mind at that moment.

Your other hand took mine and placed it back on your thigh, but much higher. I was itching to move it up even further to feel you... Your hand was now resting on my knee, and bolder than I can be, you were finding your way under my dress. Your hand, so warm and soft, yet so strong and demanding, it suddenly seemed my inner thighs were on fire and I could feel dampness pool between my legs. I tried to shift in my seat, leaned back a little and let you help me slide my leg over your thigh to ease your exploration.

In the back, I could hear a steady beat, almost hypnotizing me. I felt I was floating and getting away from you.

This was too good to be true, FGS... my alarm clock woke me up this morning, before I knew how this hot evening with my fantasy date would end.  *sigh*

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Thank you FG Sakes for this ~ One of my many fantasies, meeting a stranger in another town.

Go check his site!

Saturday, December 5, 2009

Today, I'm wearing a white ribbon

Remembering December 6, 1989



I still remember that evening. I was a student and was downtown Montreal with some friends. Even though the details of what I've been doing at the time are still fuzzy (it's been 20 years after all), I still remember walking in the first snow of the season, it was windy and cold, I was totally numb and in shock.

14 women were gunned down at the Ecole Polytechnique, gunned down by one man who hated feminists, gunned down because they were women and studying in non traditional roles (engineering). He entered a classroom, ordered the men to move to one side, the women on the other side and shooted women while the men watched, helpless. Then proceeded to other parts of the school, shooting women randomly until turning the gun on himself.

Every year, this tragedy is brought up by the media, opening the wounds of parents who lost their daughters, of men who watched their fellow students die, of friends, of men and women, of a society. Some committed suicide, unable to cope with the pain, some have taken action in their community, raising awareness against violence, some have fought for a gun registry. People ask if it's worth it to be reminded of what happened that evening... would it change anything? But the moment we stop thinking about what happened, the sacrifice these women made will slowly be forgotten and we will have fail as a society. Maybe I would feel different if I would have known someone who died that evening, but I believe nobody wants their child or their friend to have died for nothing.

[That beautiful song by The Beatles often played at memorials held shortly after.]

I wasn't at that school at the time (I was just starting college, this was a university), didn't knew anyone there, but I'm still very emotional about that day and about my role as a woman. As I've been doing for the past 20 years, today I'm wearing a white ribbon and will light a candle in front of a window this evening.


Saturday 9: Joy to the World

1. What to you is the most joyous aspect of the holidays? Being with family. Even if I complain about how stressful this time of the year is, about travelling and snow and cold and all, I always end up having a good time.

2. Do you get much snow where you live? If yes, do you enjoy winter sports like skiing or would you rather stay in by the cozy fire?  Too much snow to my liking - last year we had 4 major snowstorms in 2 months and each time, I was the one arriving home first and had to shovel that damn snow ~ Skiing is too dangerous for me but I love ice skating. A cozy fire with a warm glass of cognac (and a man) is a lovely idea after skating - or shoveling.

3. Have you ever been on a sleigh ride or a carriage ride? Do you even like horses? No. Yes. Horses are beautiful animals, elegant yet powerful.

4. During the busy week, what do you do to relax? Relax? Uh huh. It's drinking until 2 am, getting up at 8 am, getting food prepped and then eating and drinking some more. Nothing relaxing. I'll relax on Jan. 4!

5. Do you get stressed during the holidays? Read #4 ... lack of sleep and headaches doesn't help relieve stress. Add in the potential snowstorms, the rush to get from here to there, pleasing everyone, making sure we visit everyone... I wish I was on a cruise in the Bahamas and out of reach sometimes!

6. What holiday song could you happily never hear again?  The list is too long.

7. How do you decide on what present you pick for a person? We only give gifts to the kids now. And I get host/hostess gifts if necessary.

8. What does this holiday season mean to you and why? This year? Probably the last Christmas of my mother-in-law. Not sure how this one will go.

9. What holiday movies best describe the season for you and why?  Home Alone. It's funny, hilarious and tender. It has family spirit and a bit of that crazyness we all experience at times. I also like Scrooged with Bill Murray, for the same reasons. My husband and I always make a point of watching those every Christmas.

Friday, December 4, 2009

Friday Fill-In #153

1. You get tired of that shit after a while.

2. I have the right to do what I want.

3. It's gonna be a tough time.

4. What? You want me to do that? It's ridiculous!

5. I feel more strongly about this now than I did then.

6. And then he kissed me...goodnight!

7. And as for the weekend, tonight I'm looking forward to catching up on some blog reading with some leftover wine, tomorrow my plans include shopping with my best friend and Sunday, I want to sleep in, again!

Thursday, December 3, 2009

Whatever happens is good

I hint and flirt, make sexy suggestions
Say we could talk, or not
Say we could kiss, or more
In a bar, the car, or anywhere else
"We don't have to do anything", I say

I know he wants to take his time
I like that, I really appreciate that
He flirts back, agrees to my suggestions
But he's kinda reserved, maybe unsure
I write back that there is no worries
Whatever happens is good
Whatever we do is good too

Then his email says "meet me at that place at such time"
Oh man... Suddenly, I was hot, shivering, butterflies
You know that feeling
When you're shaking from head to toe in anticipation
A bit of that fear of the unknown
You get scared because it excites you
You get excited because it scares you

But he admits to be nervous since booking the hotel
I try to reassure him, that we can always cancel
That there is no pressure
But secretly, I just want to see him
Doesn't matter where

He writes back "We'll talk and see what happens"
But I know that one thing leads to another
He knows it too, I'm sure

"So, we go at your speed. Ok?"
"Yes, I'll see you later", I said